It’s a beautiful
lighting phenomena same as on the early time when falling in love.
However when it gone
only cold and darkness left behind. The lonely feeling unbearable.
Cant help thinking of
U, why the silent? What happen? How U want me to trust U and open to accept U
if what U said and Ur action is in different direction.
Pernah tak alami
situasi nie.
Badan penat n hati
runsing. Mata x mau lena. Bila dah asyik berkeluh kesah pejamkan mata, selesa
kan tubuh dan create imagination until terlena dan wake up segar esoknya.
(escape place from reality.)
Perkara nie baru lagi
happen to me. Hati runsing dan rasa sangat fed up dengan semua orang. Masa yang
sama rasa x berdaya dan sangat lemah nak hadapi masalah. Badan pulak penat dan
x cukup rehat. Nak lepaskan x tau nak buat macam mana. Nak bercerita tak ada
yang mendengar.
So baring, tutuplah
mata, mulalah imagine meet someone, not a malay guy, Indian or Chinese, ada
keje bagus n ekonomi yang stabil. Berkenalan dan serasi bersama. Sama2 menjaga
diri dan keperluan masing2 walaupun terbatas. Maksudnya x declare, skandal or
just kawan rapat. Mcm tu la……
So after few periods,
relation took another step. Both of us luv each other like lovers do, at the
same time we also a best friend to each other. Saling melengkapi hingga lah
lebih dari setakat biasa2. Decide having place to meet each other or when miss
each other but could not meet one of us could spend time at the place.
He take care of funding
me every month on his own will as showing his commitment to the relation and
his love to me. As for me, I do my best to make him happy n spend time with
him. Took care of him, be there when he needed me. But both of us agree, when
the time comes and he need to have his own family, we went our own way.
Not because we do not
love each other anymore but that was the right thing to do. We mutually agree
even both of us already have someone, we will try our best to be for each other
when needed as always.
Sad and Happy ending.
Tapi just in imagination je hahaha…..
Tau ari dah siang.
Start la balik hassle daily routine as mother, wife and an employee……
